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Monday, July 30, 2012

Let My people Go!

Main Sections:
*"False Jesus" Alert!
*False Teachers! -Products of society.
*Decisions! Decisions! Decisions!
*Action? Change? Moving forward?
(If you don't have time to read all this just watch the video at the very end)

At the beginning of Winter I was reading about Miriam how she kinda had a power struggle with Moses in the desert-she challenged Moses authority (Numbers 12:2). "Miriam loved the Lord. Indeed that is what her name means. She just got her attitude wrong and this got her into trouble. God punished her and later restored her again." (some website lol). It reminded me of the conflicts I'd been having with Staff and I took it to mean that I was Miriam in that senario. So I apologised to them and tried to stay out of their hair but that's the quarter I fell back into depression and confusion about my identity and my voice. Later God showed me that Staff was actually like Miriam and Aaron in that scenario. People in the fellowship are growing up in the faith and learning their identity and finding their place in the body (post: A Generation Arising!) but Staff doesn't understand what's going on and see it as a power struggle (due to the structure that's currently in place). Anyway, God is preparing all of us to be deliverers but first God needs to deliver us from some stuff we may be unaware of and His multiethnic body is one of the designs He uses. We all have a staff in our hands (personal experience, cultural perspective and spiritual gifts) that's to be used to build up and equip the body of Christ. So here's my staff.

"As Pharaoh approached, the Israelites looked up, and there were the Egyptians, marching after them. They were terrified and cried out to the Lord. They said to Moses, “Was it because there were no graves in Egypt that you brought us to the desert to die? What have you done to us by bringing us out of Egypt? Didn’t we say to you in Egypt, ‘Leave us alone; let us serve the Egyptians’? It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than to die in the desert!” Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Then the Lord said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on. Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground." (Exodus 14: 10-16)

This is the beginning of an email I sent to staff on 4/12/12: 
"Hey :) So when Marissa called me (because I liked Jovanny's comment on the InterVarsity wall,"InterVarsity needs to be more bold and active in the community") she told me, "if you have something to say to us then say it." God has been telling me things to tell you staff but I haven't been obedient  because I knew it would hurt you and so I kept it from you even though that meant that I kept hurting and watching others hurt as well. But last quarter He showed me my insecurities and I finally re-learnt my identity in Him ("Winter Rains"). But this quarter there's something He told me that I hadn't changed, which is choosing to maintain fake peace with everyone especially those in authority (peace with men without peace with God -since I haven't been obeying Him- not saying the things He tells me to say). And I can't take this cycle anymore, I can't take fakeness anymore. It hurts me which I usually don't mind persevering  (but God told me He does mind) and it's really hurting the fellowship. I love you guys too much to settle for fake peace. So I must say these things, I tried to spare you this harsh truth but you chose it to be this way so let it be as you wished. (And no I didn't want to meet up to talk about this. There'd be too much emotion involved which will just distract you from the actual message. I'll either shout at you, cry or give you silence. I had opted for silence but this stuff must be said)...Anyway, as you read the next things please don't take personal offense, remember we are not fighting against flesh and blood but powers and principalities of this dark world so I'm calling out the devil and his schemes. Tone: My heart is broken for our fellowship and the devil's deceitfulness in this age :'( yet I'm filled with hope and joy for I know the end. God wins :)"
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"False Jesus" Visions

So at prefall both Haley and Marissa had "false Jesus" visions.  Marissa's: She saw her friend Mariah from afar but when she went close to her it wasn't her, then she saw her again elsewhere but when she came closer it wasn't Mariah. Haley's: There was darkness all around then she saw a light and she thought it was Jesus but when she followed it and went she close by it wasn't Him, it was some demonic creature. She saw another light again, went closer to it and found out it wasn't Jesus again but an evil creature. (Feel free to correct me if I messed with any specifics) But the gist was that they followed what was familiar, what they thought was true but upon closer inspection it was not the Truth but a lie. And at prefall, God led me to share 1 John 4: 1-6 as the interpretation of the visions which also revealed to me the lateness of this hour (Jesus is coming back soon!!!). And I told everyone that we can't trust anyone, only God, not even the staff we respect and look up to, but we need to test everything we hear with God's Word (post: Trust No One but God). Also I remember when we were doing listening prayer, Diane was paired up with Haley and the word Diane got for her was "Eat the Word." Dear friends, there are 2 kingdoms in operation on earth (the Kingdom of God and the kingdom of the world) and 2 spirits (the Spirit of God/the Spirit of Truth and the spirit of the world/ the spirit of falsehood) and we can either walk by faith (be Spirit-led) or walk by sight like the world does (conforming to the world and being deceived). To know the difference we have to be in the Word (use it as the standard) and be Spirit-led. If you don't use God's Word as the standard (what God says is true) then your own personal and cultural experience (what you think is true or what others have taught you is true) will be your standard and chances are that you will be deceived since the kingdom of this world is heavily influenced by the devil's lies and schemes. So a False Jesus is basically [Jesus-inthebox] : taking in parts of His identity as true while excluding other parts/ downplaying them/ replacing them with other parts that are not of Him. Some cultural backgrounds can really influence the creation of a False Jesus e.g. Western Culture. So The Real Jesus is His Full identity as He has revealed Himself through His Word. Not just the parts we like about Him.

♫ I don't know what you heard, hope it matches with The Word.
I don't know what you think, homie time to get it straight. 

 

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   False Teachers!

"People say that they love truth in reality they want to believe that which they love is true."
-Ringer, Robert J.
"In answer to your inquiry, I consider that the chief dangers which confront the coming century will be Religion without the Holy Ghost, Christianity without Christ, forgiveness without repentance, salvation without regeneration, politics without God, and heaven without hell." 
- William Booth, founder of Salvation Army.

InterVarsity, here's the heart-breaking truth. Our beloved staff are being false teachers. Yes I was also shocked when I found out and I know it's really hard news for them to come to terms with. They don't do this intentionally obviously but it's due to generational blindspots and God wants to correct it for their good and that of the whole fellowship. He is refining us! :) 

This is really harsh Truth but keep in mind that Jesus is the Good Shepherd, God is the Perfect Father: "The LORD has disciplined me severely, but he has not given me over to death." (Psalm 118:18) "When we are judged by the Lord, we are being disciplined so that we will not be condemned with the world." (1 Corinthians 11:32) "I will be his father, and he will be my son. When he does wrong, I will punish him with the rod of men, with floggings inflicted by men. But my love will never be taken away from him, as I took it away from Saul, whom I removed from before you. (2 Samuel 7:14-15)

So our Staff is walking by sight and not by faith. They do this by making decisions based off their cultural experiences and the old way of doing things (what they have been taught) instead of God's Word and the new move of His Spirit and by rejecting the Truth that God speaks to them through the prophets (people who speak the truth they know by experience or what the Spirit reveals to them) in the fellowship- such as Shayne and Judith. Want examples?

I brought up the markers in the Colors of the Wind post when I was talking about Cultural racism so you can go there for background/description.
MarkersFalse Teachers/shepherds/prophets in the Americanized ChurchWord from God
 1. Cultural Racism ex. "Having future time orientation".Our staff is busy worrying about the future of the fellowship and completely disregarding what God was saying we should do in the present (Paul at common ground: "The future of the fellowship is in your hands"- trying to get people sign up for leaders training. And Melissa telling people to pray because of her fear that "a certain someone"- that they kicked out of fellowship, namely, Josh, that he would jeopardize the existence of the fellowship). While God had already shown us the future of the fellowship through multiple visions they choose to be moved by fear of the future which only leads to further oppression. *Stop & Wait!  (Acts1)

*Matthew 6:33-34

2."Emphasizing individualism  as opposed to a more collective ideology"

*Tendency of analytical thinkers
*Gesellschaft
*Individualistic cultures.
The solution God showed me through His Word is Acts1-2 and 1 Samuel 7 which entails everyone coming together. But they thought it would be a better idea to just pass on the message to people to resolve their conflicts and pray at their own convenience. Why go through the hassle of meeting up to obey God's Word? And if a few people are suffering which has lead to their isolation from the fellowship who cares? As long as the majority of the crowd is happy right? And out of sight, out of mind; that's the depth of our connection right? And while they kick out the sick (Josh) we pray for God to add to our numbers.
*Gesellschaft=" means 'association' or 'society'. More characteristic of modern Western societies, treat relationships as imaginary, instrumental, and means to ends. The primary focus is on autonomous individuals who are bound to one another through social convention. Relations in these groups tend to be perceived as relatively impersonal and somewhat contractual. (Cultural Psych by Heine) (Contrast this with "Gemeinschaft"- which means community)
Ezekiel 34 (Woe to you shepherds!)

2 Chronicles 15
3. They teach out of ignorance thereby spreading lies, instead of humbling themselves and letting others in the fellowship lead them to learn the solution.

*High NCC marker.
*They do this due to NCC = Need of cognitive closure= "A desire to have a definite answer to a question. For people high in NCC, it doesn't matter so much what answer people receive, just so long as they have an answer; any firm answer is preferred to uncertainity" (Cultural Psych by Heine)
*Melissa is high in NCC and I have heard her spread multiple lies when dealing with spiritual stuff she doesn't know about- e.g what happened at prefall
 a)"This doesn't mean that this will be our 
new normal"- while that was exactly what God wanted to create. The very definition of revival.
b)"Hell is just a place without God's presence. If people are living without God on earth then hell can't be that bad."Does a fiery lake of burning sulphur sound "not that bad"??? (Revelation 21:8)
c) Addressing prefall at an all leaders meeting: "I don't know but (here comes the lie) everyone is from different backgrounds and they worship God differently. Some churches focus on teaching the Word which is fine. Some focus on the Holy Spirit which is fine." Then she recommended a book that justifies this. This is how "the false Jesus" gets constructed and is against the very purpose of racial reconciliation: to worship Jesus in His Full identity.
Isaiah 30
Ezekiel 22:28
Ezekiel 13
4. Run by a meritocractic heirarchy (those at the top of the ladder call all the shots and do things their way and go unchecked)*God gave me a prophetic song for the fellowship based on Psalm 24 and staff was okay with me leading it then they changed their minds right at common ground since Paul thought that writing down our sins and posting them on paper cross on the wall was a better idea than letting The King of Glory step in and give us rest Himself.
*They also cancelled the Black Church Experience we were meant to have in Winter last minute coz Paul did not want me to lead it/speak since he didn't trust me (he wanted to train me first in how they do things in InterVarsity- how they look at all the speaker's notes and tailor them message to fit the student audience, how they practice and work on their hand gestures. Look up "impression management" & listen to Colors of the Wind.) Each time God gave me a Word they didn't like they refused me to share it with you guys. At the beginning of Winter, I was led to tell you guys what God told me how we are leaders by identity not by prescription (and what that means since God is waking us up to operate as a body)and also the interpretation of the False Jesus visions but Staff refused me to talk to the leaders at their leaders meeting for 5 minutes.
*We are the body of Christ (not a meritocratic hierachical structure) and we are all equal under one head, Christ Himself. No one has monopoly on the Holy Spirit and God speaks through all the different parts of the body so let us 
all humble ourselves before the Lord and His design- He is the head and we are His body. God says, "My house shall be called a House of prayer of all nations."- This is not your mama's house to run it how she taught you!!! But have the same Father though so let's listen to Him and obey His Word.
1 Corinthians 12

Matthew 21:13

Isaiah 63:7-10
5. They say there's peace and safety when there's no peace and plan for a future they have no vision of. 


*Gospel of prosperity.
*Half truths & lies.
*Whitewashing.
 InterVarsity, your Staff has not prepared you for what's coming this year even after God gave me the interpretations to the visions and dreams He gave them, they just ignored me and carried on with their plans."As for me, this mystery has been revealed to me, not because I have greater wisdom than other living men, but so that you, O king, may know the interpretation and that you may understand what went through your mind." (Daniel 2: 30) God also led me to the video clip below concerning the staff and other false prophets in America, because of their stubbornness and pride (not painting with all the colors of the wind hence not accepting and loving everyone) which is keeping people from seeing the whole Truth God will shake this nation to wake us up. *Ezekiel 13*
(Woe to the foolish prophets!)

Isaiah 30.
Isaiah 63:7-19 Isaiah 64. 
6. Foolish Virgins. 

*Cultural Pride.
*Independence.
*Control Freak issues.
They are being like the Pharisees. Unknowingly rejecting the Kingdom of Heaven- righteousness, peace & joy in the Holy Spirit & preventing others from entering in. Check out the FALSE Apostles post.Matthew 25:1-13

 Psalm 127:1-2 and Mark 2:22, Hosea 4:6, Isaiah 56:7

""The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!" (Matthew 6:22-23) *The world (the devil's schemes through different aspects of our culture) has messed up our vision so we need to help each other see the Truth. Let's base everything on The Word. "See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness." (Luke 11:35)


Email I sent Staff (4/12/12): "I know just telling you guys stuff is harsh and you probably still don't get me; so let me show you the solution since you don't get it, let me lead you for a night. This is the solution: (1 Samuel 7) and I only want to do God's will. This is not about us. It's all about Him and His kingdom. *This is urgent. Something is coming, something big is coming and if you keep postponing responding to God's message (I didn't make this stuff up) you are actually hurting the fellowship. The very people you are trying to shelter are the ones who will be at highest risk to fall away when stuff goes down this year (Ezekiel 13). That's why we need to prepare them spiritually for that stuff (Ephesians 4: 11-16.) You guys aren't the only shepherds in the fellowship (the body) and Jesus is the head and the Chief shepherd so let's follow Him). We need our lamps to be full of oil ( baptized with the Holy Spirit) to be prepared for the season we are quickly going into. If you want to meet up with me we can and I'll just repeat all this stuff again and come to the same conclusion: 1 Samuel 7. But if you want to meet up so that you can understand what I'm saying before you can let it happen there's no point for that. That's what we've been trying to do all year and it doesn't work (2 Corinthians 10:4) so if you want to understand then let me show it to you and you'll finally understand. So yeah right now the ball is in your court and it's your move and know that the decisions you are making are affecting the whole fellowship. So don't trust yourself (your experience and those of your mentors) The only thing you can rely on is His Word and the Spirit. Please listen to me- I'm just sharing what He told me and it's for the good of the whole fellowship (including the lost sheep)- I'm not doing this for myself . And He has given me confirmation for all He tells me so I know I'm not crazy as you probably think I am. So seek Him about this stuff I've shared (Eccles. 5:1-2)...I pray He gives you humble hearts, eyes to see and ears to hear. God's grace is enough. K that's all I have to say to you. Love you guys. Even with a broken heart I will keep loving you."  


Part of an email I sent to staff (4/12/12):
"This clip is concerning our interactions the past 2 quarters (especially you and I, Paul). You want racial reconciliation to happen yet you don't see how you have been standing in the way of that just by not trusting in God's plan (seeing the fellowship as a body.) I know you don't do this intentionally. It's a cultural stronghold, a generational blindspot and God uses people from different cultures (different point of view) to spot this out, call it out, and interceed. Which is what he's been telling me to do (interceed) for you guys coz you don't see what I see. *1 Samuel 7* And I was going to do this the African way (gentle) and what I was going to speak about was Love, the first commandment. But No! one night was too much to ask for.  I find it sad that you ask God for rest, revival, racial rec, yet you don't see how this actually happens and therefore reject it. So if you want these things, you have to let go (lose control) the Holy Spirit wants to give us rest.

Anyway, here is what you've asked for. I would have presented it in a gentle way if you guys were willing to displace yourself but since that hasn't yet happened then I'll do it your way (what you're asking for is not what you want. What you actually want is what you are rejecting). I love you guys. "for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame." (Songs of Songs 8:6) And I'm fighting for you even though to you it may seem like I'm an enemy. And I forgive you for all this stuff that you don't know you've been doing and I don't have any bitterness, only strong love. God's grace is enough for all of us. And the reason He told me to tell this stuff to you guys is because He loves you and wants to expose the devil's schemes so you can stop falling for them. "The Lord disciplines those He loves as a father the son he delights in." =) Also, I'm not going anywhere (I know who I am so I'm not running away this time). And I will keep loving you even though you don't get me. And I'll keep fighting for you and the fellowship even though it means appearing like the enemy."
A Call to Lamentation

Put on sackcloth, you priests, and mourn;
    wail, you who minister before the altar.
Come, spend the night in sackcloth,
    you who minister before my God;
for the grain offerings and drink offerings 
    are withheld from the house of your God.
Declare a holy fast; 
    call a sacred assembly.
Summon the elders
    and all who live in the land 
to the house of the Lord your God,
    and cry out to the Lord.
Alas for that day!
    For the day of the Lord is near;
    it will come like destruction from the Almighty.
(Joel 1: 13-15)
"Lift up your heads, you gates;
be lifted up, you ancient doors,
    that the King of glory may come in." (Psalm 24:7)



say to the captives, 'Come out,' and to those in darkness, 'Be free!' Isaiah 49: 9
Everyone, God is really serious about Love and Justice (Loving Him and loving each other).
  1. Let us pray for ourselves individually and ask Him to search our hearts and as we pray let us draw near to listen Eccles. 5:1-2. Let's take a break from routine, fast and get real with God. Let's get real about our brokenness and not try to cover it up. He wants to bring healing and restoration :) This year I was really dissatisfied with things so I was forced to stop and refocus. My relationship with God was really suffering since I was focused more on what I did for Him or with fellowship so I needed to break from routine to get things right, to put first things first. It was awkward at first, just being alone with God. He showed me the state of my heart which wasn't fun and I had to learn a lot of painful truths but it was rewarding! I remembered who I am in Him :) So yeah put your distractions and entertainment away and seek God first. Be in His Word and just worship Him. He really does satisfy! Find ways to delight yourself in Him (being who you are without excluding God and finding ways to acknowledge God in stuff you do. That's worship :) (Related posts: Remember, Just Be & Search Me (Jan. posts), The Present (Feb.) and Winter Rains and A Call to Fast (March).          (Hosea 10:12)
    "Sow righteousness for yourselves,
    reap the fruit of unfailing love,
    and break up your unplowed ground;
    for it is time to seek the LORD,
    until He comes
    and showers his righteousness on you."
  2. Reconcile = Let's all be friends and love each other (with definitions of love and friendship from the Word).  Let's all stop gossiping. If you have unresolved conflict with someone, I know it's summer but make effort to resolve it instead of waiting till school starts. Let's pray for each other and for the whole fellowship and fast together. Let's pray for Staff. Let us also confess our own contributions to the problems in the fellowship (including apathy, fear and inaction).
  3. We all need to come out of the system and follow God's model in His Word=  Staff, there are many strongholds in your culture that are working against you but all you have to do is to lift up your heads and let the King of Glory come in. He will fight your battles and set you free. We are not called to understand everything but to Trust and Obey. We have to understand that God is all-powerful and all-knowing and works things out for out good. I know things got really ugly this year but just confess and repent and reconcile. Everyone is sooo ready to be reconciled so let's do that so that we can put the past behind and move forward as a fellowship. This applies to Staff  as well as everyone else. Let's humble ourselves before God and apply the solutions God gives us in His Word for change to happen. And like I keep telling you guys, your spiritual gifts are really important especially at a time like this and you have to step up and start using them (whether or not you are on the leadership team) since their not yours to keep but they are to be shared with the body. If you don't know your gifts seek God about them. I talk about spiritual gifts in these post: "A Call for UNITY in the body of Christ" and "On Spiritual Gifts". But yeah God placed you in this fellowship for a reason and you have something that the rest of fellowship needs. We really need each other to survive so let's share our lives which includes using God's word, our experiences and our gifts and talents to edify the body. It's time to let The Lord be your shepherd! You are a leader by identity. Don't wait for Staff or anyone to give you permission to be yourself. God is the One who gave you your identity so wait on Him for direction and follow Him wherever He leads you! (Remember who you are then be yourself)  Be free! It's time to use your staff! :) Listen to the songs in this post: Free to Be!


Yeah, let's all REPENT! Let us return to Him with all our hearts and run to His mercy seat. His grace is sufficient! There are lots of idols in this land and some have crept into the church under different titles (I'll expose them in an upcoming post HATE the game). So let's just "lift up our heads and let the King of Glory come in" (Psalm 24). Let us just worship Him! When we fix our eyes on Jesus the things of the world fade away so let's chase after Him! He wants to give us rest :-)

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InterVarsity, everyone,  I know that was a lot of harsh truth to deal with all at once but it's about time we face it. But like I've told you, these fires are not to destroy us but to refine us, so let's just cooperate with God and follow His Word. God has a great plan for us! He makes beautiful things out of the dust. There's a bigger picture to what God is doing! Look out for the post REAL Identity. He'll make beautiful things out of us! ~ A time to break down and a time to build up ~ But yeah, break down first. Let your heart be broken for the things God's heart breaks for, not just for yourself but for staff and the entire fellowship.

"Come, let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us
he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds." (Hosea 6:1)

It's time we start applying the things we have been learning. I'll be sharing a lot of practicals and more truths that have been overlooked coz it's about that time to change our ways (repent). Let's be free to share practicals, debunk any myths, rebuke and correct any lies, share prayer requests. We are the body of Christ, we are family. Let's be good friends to each other. Love Charlene :)

(*P.S: I'm just sharing with my friends what God tells me which He also confirms with Scripture. I'm not getting paid for this lol. It's all love and it's free. If you think I'm crazy and don't believe me about the stuff I'm sharing -the harsh truth and the urgency to apply this message- feel free to let me know coz God has given lots of really clear confirmation that that's the message He is speaking to different people in this season through His Spirit. So yeah let me know and I'll pass it on. Maybe you'll receive it better when it comes from someone else. But yeah just seek God about all this stuff and He'll give you confirmation :)

Related post: It's ALL about Jesus!  If you're still clueless don't worry, just pray and I have more to share so wait for it! (Don't fight me right now coz you really don't know what you're doing or what I'm doing so wait and I'll let you know. Be patient! Good things come to those who wait :)

"May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it." (1 Thessalonians 5: 23-24) =)




WATCH THIS FOR CONFIRMATION GOD LED ME TO FOR THIS MESSAGE.

Let's repent. Love, Charlene :-)

Are you Comfortable yet?

The Sleeping Bride of Christ (The World-Conformed Church)


Knock! Knock! House-Keeping! 

The worldly church is fast asleep
Under the mellow
♪ Tidings of comfortable and coy!
Comfortable! and Coy! ♪ and
TRADITION!...TRADITION!

But when anything is exposed by the light, it becomes visible, for anything that becomes visible is light. Therefore it says, “WAKE UP, O sleeper, and RISE from the dead, and Christ will SHINE on you.” (Ephesians 5:13-14)
(If you don't get this post then just watch the video I've added at the very end)





Hello InterVarsity family! First of all I would like to address the predicament aka HOT MESS we have put ourselves in. Yes, I said "we" but I'm talking to the older crowd, emphasis on the Staff and leaders - we are the people in the "aware" category in my BEHOLD! post...  but don't take heat that's not yours it's mostly for staff since the leaders are also unaware about somethings but feel free to act upon whatever you get convicted about ... a lot of the fellowship is in the "ignorant" category concerning the drama in the fellowship {But I'll fill you in. You can start at "Let My people Go!" post or just read on}... but it's about time we all graduate from those categories and move on up! 


I'm just doing what God told me to and it's for everyone's good :) But here's some confirmation in Scripture for you:
"For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light  (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. It is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret." (Ephesians 5: 8-12)

"Do not entertain an accusation against an elder unless it is brought by two or three witnesses. Those persist in sin are to be rebuked publicly, so that the others may take warning." (1 Timothy 5: 19-20) There are much more than 3 witnesses to the deeds of darkness that Staff has been involved in and one of them is Staff themselves (the visions and dreams that God gave them and that they shared with us).So yeah this is a public rebuke as well as a desperate plea for Staff and for the rest of you take warning to not repeat the same mistakes and to be careful who you follow, also pray for Staff and take any other action God convicts you to take. This is a CALL FOR REPENTANCE.

Staff, I know there's a "Do not disturb" sign posted outside the door but it's about time someone did the house-keeping! <Break down the ancient door> I have been waiting for you guys to do it but all you've been doing about it is whitewashing.  Don't think this is the place to address it? Well we did nothing during the school year- you refused to address it- and your censorship activities kept me off the InterVarsity wall. So I guess I'll do us this service as much as I hate it -I'd rather if we had obeyed God and applied the solutions He gave us during the year. We know you are here to serve us but thing is, we are the body of Christ (The Head, The Lord and The Chief Shepherd) and we are all here to serve each other. I thank you for how you have served us but what I'm against is the additional services of lordship and whitewashing. You always tell us that you guys are control freaks and you take it lightly yet that is your main problem because in Bible terms that is "lording it over those entrusted to you" which is advised against in 1 Peter 1:3. I now know (after meeting up with you guys) that you're just trying to do your job (as has been described to you by InterVarsity and what you have learnt from your mentors and all the pastors you know- like Paul told me) but it's time to uphold the Word of God. And I've already told you guys all this before and you ignored me....sigh... Sleeping beauty, I tried multiplying kisses all year but that didn't wake you up so being a loving friend, I am forced to go all Rafiki on you and use my staff! Never felt a love like this before? Allow me to demonstrate it.

"If you have any issue with someone take it up with them in person."- Kevin.


The Lord said, “I have indeed seen the misery of my people in Egypt. I have heard them crying out because of their slave drivers, and I am concerned about their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the hand of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land into a good and spacious land, a land flowing with milk and honey —the home of the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites. And now the cry of the Israelites has reached me, and I have seen the way the Egyptians are oppressing them. So now, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt.” (Who Cares? GOD CARES! :) Exodus 3: 7-10)

"Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helplesslike sheep without a shepherd." ( Who cares? JESUS CARES! :) Matthew 9: 35-36)

Staff, how many times this year and before that have I and other people in the fellowship met up with you to tell you the problems we have with how you guys are running things? That was basically the story of my Fall and part of Winter quarter life. In Fall quarter (when we actually had prayer meetings before the Winter drought), God was speaking through different people in the fellowship about the reality of unresolved conflict and the urgency to resolve them. At Paul's prayer meeting when we were doing listening prayer God gave Chris Taylor: Leviticus 3 it's about The Fellowship Offering/ Peace Offering. Chris Taylor and Wisdom's prayer meeting was on conflict resolution. Shayne and Lissah's prayer meeting was on racial reconciliation and they got the sense that something big was going to pop off coz of all the unresolved conflict.

Then one time I got a sense of urgency that instead of having an area meeting that week we should have an all leaders meeting and invite all the leaders as well as non-leaders involved with any drama and just deal with it once and for all. I told Staff but Melissa said no to the all leaders meeting and that she would just tell the area leaders to tell people to deal with their conflict. I replied, "You guys have the final say, I know. I still think it's more efficient to all meet up so people feel the urgency to deal with it. If some people don't act on their convictions, which is more likely to happen if we're not all together, it still affects all of us. We are doing what you guys decide which is fine. But if God sees that we're not doing it, He'll keep bringing it up. When I was planning for worship yesterday Matthew 5: 23-24 came up, “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift."(11/3/11)

So yeah the meeting never happened. Over the break, I saw Edith status and Haley had commented about how songs from Fiddler on the roof kept coming up for them (Edith's sis and Haley). I'd seen it before but I checked it out again, and because I see things differently, I heard God's voice through it and it's actually about our fellowship (and this nation). "It is based on Tevye and his Daughters (or Tevye the Milkman and Other Tales) by Sholem Aleichem. The story centers on Tevye, the father of five daughters, and his attempts to maintain his family and Jewish religious traditions while outside influences encroach upon their lives. He must cope both with the strong-willed actions of his three older daughters—each one's choice of husband moves further away from the customs of his faith—and with the edict of the Tsar that evicts the Jews from their village." (Wikipedia) So this is how that relates to our fellowship (keep in mind the purpose of the "colors of the wind")... So Staff  is acting like Tevye and the fellowship is like their daughters. Some people from the fellowship are trying to use their cultural and spiritual gifts to shine light to overlooked truth and to correct lies (to change the system for the better) but Staff is working hard to maintain the InterVarsity tradition and the Christian life as they've known it. In this case maintaining that tradition is a really bad thing because it is oppressing the people from different "colors of the wind" and it's bad for the staff as well as the rest of the fellowship who don't know what their missing out on or what lies they are falling for. Dear Staff and Americanized church, God is doing a NEW thing! right now so by sticking to your old way of doing things (following your traditions and beloved rabbis) and refusing to paint with all the colors of The Wind then you are not following Him forwards you are now sleeping walking in random circles! 



During Fall, God gave me 2 words about what Staff was doing: Impression management which I had learnt about in my Sociology class it means: A process by which people in social situations manage the setting and their dress, words, and gestures to correspond to the impressions they are trying to make or the image they are trying to project. I called Marissa coz God had really pressed it upon my heart that they were more worried about the impression they were making on new people that's why they didn't wanna address drama and that we were too focussed on ourselves (trying not to be offended) but it's not about us because God wants worship that's pleasing to Him.  And by not addressing the drama our worship is like filthy rags to Him (I later traced that to Isaiah 64:6 and it makes sense in light of the Matthew 5:23-24 above). I was really fired up when I called her so instead of responding to the message I passed on this was her response:"Are you at peace right now?"sigh... -_- 


~ Commercial OutBreak: Tone, Love and Emotions ~

Dear world, I am not sorry that I am different, that I am African. I am not sorry that I do not fit into the box you put me in and the labels you handed to me. I am not sorry that I have a different way of communicating that varies depending on the times and seasons and a different way of thinking.  This is how God created me so you just gotta accept me as I am. Because He accepts me and He created me this way for a reason.

Dear world-conformed church, This is an Awakening season and it's definitely not the time to sing the remixed "silent apathetic night" or candy-coated lullabies and "Tidings of comfortable and coy! Comfortable and Coy!" And if you are so concerned and offended by tone then I wonder how you make it through reading the Bible! :o coz it was definitely not written in a mellow monotone! Marissa and Staff the post: FALSE Apostles was about you guys and the song I've posted there is a special dedication to you and to all who blindly follow you. It's time to follow the Real Jesus as He fully presents Himself in the Word not the Americanized [Jesus-inthebox] version.

Back to your question Marissa, "Are you at peace right now?" Is that all you're worried about after I deliver God's Words to you? Here are some questions that I think deserve more consideration. We should all ask ourselves: Am I comfortable enough? Quenched the fire of the Holy Spirit much? Numbed my heart with apathy and selfish fear, white washing and impression management? 
God revived me at Prefall and He gave me His peace that surpasses all understanding that's why I can be as ♫ tranquil as a forest but on fire within ♫ (Mulan) "But if I say, "I will not mention Him or speak any more in His name," His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot." (Jeremiah 20:9) But that fire can be easily quenched by getting caught up with the world's perspective and fighting like the world does -story of my Winter quarter... twas a really cold Winter! freezing! and Spring wasn't that much warmer :(


World-conformed church, it's time for us to be transformed by the WORD of God. Please do not equate all release of strong emotions such as anger and sorrow with the absence of love. If you do so you are accusing God (defined as Love) and Jesus (the manifestation of God's Love for us) to be not loving. You see, the thing is "there is a time for everything under the sun and a season for every activity under heaven" (Read Ecclesiastes 3). God's Love is different from the world's definition of love. His Love is like an umbrella under which certain aspects co-exist. His Love is unending and unconditional; it also hates every form of evil and does not tolerate it- it separates itself from it (Psalm 1). It goes LOCO at all systems of oppresion (Check out Jesus, "the table-turner" in Matthew 21:12) It burns with jealousy out of desire for closeness with His bride (oh His sleeping bride! All His wayward sheep! Let's wake up and return to Him with all our hearts :) Yeah, His LOVE is AWAKE and ALIVE! So if your love is asleep and lifeless then it's due for revival :)

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" If that doesn't work, turn to friends for help and complain about your issues to them." - Kevin
Uhm, that's what everyone's been doing like forever. I have tried focussing on the solutions (praying, fasting, worship, being friends, and sharing interpretations God gave me for the visions/dreams he gave us) and I have invited you guys to join me (refer to the InterVarsity wall and your text messages) and few people listened and joined me and I got discouraged myself as well :(

"Moses reported this to the Israelites, but they did not listen to him because of their discouragement and cruel bondage. Then the LORD said to Moses, "Go, tell Pharoah king of Egypt to let the Israelites go out of his country." (Exodus 6: 9-10)

"Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, 

that will he also reap." (Galatians 6:7)

So if you haven't noticed, I'm no longer in the people-pleasing business coz I realized that I can't love people in truth if my main concern is trying to please them coz sometimes Love hurts, . So yeah, I want to please God and love even when it hurts (even when it hurts me or even when it hurts my friends) coz though it may hurt for a while, it always produces good fruit, fruit that will last. Love needs foresight.

Kevin pointed out I have been vague in my posts. Why? Well it's vague to those who don't get it but it's not vague to those who it's mainly about, Staff. I was hoping that they would get the not-so-subtle hints and do something about it before I'd be forced to call them out on it. You see, that's one of the purposes of my voice and why God gave it back to me. He's been telling me to call out the system so I've been trying to get Staff to get out of it before the bashing begun. I went to their many meetings, talked on the phone, sent them emails but they stood their ground within the system. I have been waiting for them to change their ways but they took my silence as endorsement to their activities ("I thought we were on the same team here"-Marissa's call after I liked Jovanny's post on the InterVarsity wall) or that I no longer cared about what was going on or about the people who were being oppressed (After ignoring me all through the quarter Paul sends me a personalized friendly text inviting me to his house for a dinner he was having for seniors minus Josh, the day before the last Common ground which Josh was excluded from and the weekend of the senior banquet that Josh wasn't welcome to as well. I didn't have any words for Paul). So I'm not going to procrastinate any longer, I have other things to share but I have to get through this ugly point first. I'm going to go LOCO on the system like God told me to and Staff since you're still part of it do not be surprised if you get hurt. A lot of decisions you have made are as a result of being moved by fear and have resulted in exclusion and cover ups. If you sow in fear then you reap your fears (fear of being exposed after all your hard work of whitewashing).

Here are some "Rules for being human" (by Cherie Carter-Scott): 
#4. A lesson is repeated until learned. It is presented to you in various forms until you learn it -- then you can go on to the next lesson. 
#5. If you don't learn easy lessons, they get harder. External problems are a precise reflection of your internal state. When you clear inner obstructions, your outside world changes. Pain is how the universe [God] gets your attention. 
#6. You will know you've learned a lesson when your actions change. Wisdom is practice.

"You are making the leaders to be rebellious. Don't you want them to honor the commitments they made as leaders?"- Marissa 's call after I like Jovanny's post about attending Nefarious.

I want us to honor the commitment we made to JESUS! to follow Him wherever He leads! (I'm not just talking about some event but in general and in all situations especially now coz the darkness got darker) And if that is being rebellious I say ♫ RIOT! EVERYBODY RIOT!  Another reason why people don't listen to me is because they follow Staff but Staff is currently going on a different direction from the one God is leading us on (based on His Word and the prophecies He gave us) and away from the messages He gives me to share with you guys. That's why they need to be called out for what they are, False Apostles, coz "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other." (Matt. 6:24a) Staff does not want to apply what God has been saying and so they are keeping the rest of the flock from applying it as well. Most of the messages that God's been giving me to share with you guys require learning through experience and whole group application. But so far all I've been doing is "tell and tell" instead of "show and tell"which is going no where since nothing is being applied. (And this also applies to the rest of us in the fellowship, not just me). I have been trying to focus on the solution which is "show and tell" (1 Samuel 7) but Staff  doesn't trust what needs to be shown (due to the many cultural stronghold I'll expose) so they reject it and you guys follow their lead.  It's time to WAKE UP sheep! and think for yourselves! Remember Lissah's prophecy? "Something big is going to pop off." Yeah it's about time for that since Staff hasn't been listening to God from Fall when He repeatedly told us to urgently and corporately resolve our conflict. It's time to use your staff and raise your voice against every unjust system and to confront any Pharoahs involved for the sake of love. Staff is really slowing us down without knowing. If they still don't want to get out of the system and follow Jesus in the New thing! that He's doing you have no obligation to follow them. Get out of the system then call it out. It's much needed after layer upon layer of whitewash. It's time we mind our Father's business (anti-slavery) so let's♫ START A RIOT! START A RIOT!♫ =) If you're not ready or up for it that's okay, you can just stand aside and pray. But I'm not staying silent anymore, I'll fight for all you guys (staff and the whole fellowship) even if you don't get what I'm doing (what God told me). I'll start a riot! against the system for freedom :)

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." (Galatians 5:1)



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"Oh your tone!... and what's your agenda?" -Marissa.

Like I said, I didn't come to tickle your ears with bedtime stories! Our "fellowship" is like a pathetic circus right now- aerial view- and we are fast asleep. So why should we carry on with the routine with people complaining, arguing and gossiping, staff hanging on to a system of oppression while we distract ourselves with making merry (and we call that love and friendship) and ignoring God's words for us. How low can we go? Let's not wait to find out. This tradition might have gotten us this far but do not deceive yourself, you think you're going places? Not so fast! Not without LOVE! (loving all the colors of the wind). It's time we WAKE UP, GET REAL and GROW UP!  Let's stop being concerned about how God delivers His Words and through whom before we can accept it and apply it. He can pass a message through a donkey and even through rocks for crying out loud! :oWe are so concerned about our feelings getting hurt by Truth and so we reject the Truth. We are so concerned about not being offended and we forget to ask God what offends Him (lesson I learnt for myself in Search Me. Test Me. Lead Me). So yeah, if the Truth in my messages offended you I am actually glad. I hope it cut you up and broke your heart into little pieces for your own sins and the corporate sins of the fellowship. I hope the duct tape you are using to hold your heart together burns in the refiner's fire. I hope you break down in godly sorrow! I hope you mourn! I hope you BLOW UP in righteous anger and let Zeal for the House of the Lord consume you. I hope you have an OutBreak of Jealousy for the purity of the Bride of Christ. I hope you faint with longing for the Living Water that satisfies. I hope you tremble in holy fear for the sake of His Name and His Word. Just go ahead and explode! Show some signs of life! It's time we get the right kind of sacrifices flowing. It's about time we change our ways (repent)! (Read 2 Corinthians 7)

"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." (Psalm 51:17)

"But Samuel replied: "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams." (1 Samuel 15:22)

“Yet even now,” declares the LORD, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning. Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the LORD your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love..." (Joel 2:12-13)




We have to wake up to the times! The devil has kept us distracted with our drama and things are about to drastically change so let's wake up now! We forgot about LOVE and that's what it's all about! So let's Wake Up now and get things right! Let's not wait for God to shake us up coz He will! pretty soon!... If you still don't see any reason to mourn then be my guest and I shall be your servant. Next Stop: Let My People Go. Staff, ♫ even now I wish that God had chose another serving as your foe on His behalf. It's the last thing that I wanted  (Prince of Egypt) But in the Kingdom of heaven there is no ageism, racism, sexism, etc. we are all equal under Christ. God is not a respector of persons. We all have to humble ourselves before Him and go through the refiner's fire. It's for our own good. Pruning comes before promotion :)"The work of God to prepare deliverers is to disqualify you so He can qualify you."- Benjamin Nolot. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called :) So yeah, Staff, it's summer but I still care, God still cares and there is no time to waste. You didn't get back to me all through the year but I'm still waiting to hear you guys address these issues with the fellowship or atleast with the oppressed. We just have to confess, repent and move forward. 

CONFIRMATION!!!
Let's repent friends and let's be reconciled. God's grace is sufficient! Fellow sheep if you're still clueless don't worry, just pray and I have more to share so wait for it! (Don't fight me right now coz really don't know what you're doing or what I'm doing so wait and I'll let you know. Be patient! Good things come to those who wait :)  Let's pray for each other. God is making us new! 
Love, Charlene :)
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Rise & Shine Sleeping Beauty! WORD ON!
Church, it's time for us to remember who we are. It's time to step out of the darkness and to shine! Arise! Shine! =)

"Do all things without grumbling or disputing, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world,  holding fast to the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I may be proud that I did not run in vain or labor in vain." (Philippians 2: 14-16)

"Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation,  now that you have tasted that the Lord is good...But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light." (Read all of 1 Peter 2)

"Therefore, since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God." (2 Corinthians 7:1)

  Shepherd of my soul. I give You full control. Wherever You may lead I will follow. I have made a choice to listen to Your voice. Wherever You may lead I will go. ♫ =)



Related Post: It's ALL about Jesus!
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Update: I know this is one of most controversial posts I've written lol. I really didn't want to do this but I had to. There was a need and God told me to. There's a time to break down and a time to build up. It had a mixture of tones which I think are reflected in the different videos I posted. Didn't get the message? Let's talk. Don't worry I won't bite haha. Why I was forced to write stuff (messages to the fellowship) is because communication wasn't really happening or it was all wrong when we were together so yeah, let's communicate. Let's be friends :) This post tries to address the same issues in a calmer way so you can check it out if you're into reading stuff or we can just talk if you're interested:  Hope.
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WATCH THIS CONFIRMATION GOD LED ME TO FOR THE MESSAGE OF THIS POST.