My Voice

The Years of Silence

Now Broken and Bruised

The Sounds of Freedom

Now Opened and Loosed

My Sophomore year I was in Paul's discipleship group and one time when we were sharing and praying for each other Paul got a vision of me:  I was a plant lol and my roots were all tangled up and so they were not growing down into the soil nicely and then a voice spoke, as the voice was speaking my roots started detangling and grew down into the soil. Then he was like, "Yeah you should speak up more. God will say convicting things through you that we need to hear." In my head, I was like, "You don't know what you are asking for." It's funny because that's not the first time I've heard that, my high school teachers here and some family would say the same and I would think same. So why did I hold back? If you read my "About me" I said that I haven't been myself for a long time and there's a side of me that most people are not ready to face and so I have been avoiding showing it due to fear of rejection. What am I talking about? I cannot shut up and watch people I care about suffer under systems of oppression and say nothing and do nothing. Yes I've been holding back for a long time and it's been eating me up and breaking me down but Jesus set me free and gave me back my voice.

Walking in that freedom and using my voice in the fellowship brought up conflict with the staff which then led me to spiral into discouragement once more. That's why I've been beating around the bush in my posts of late. Being vague and trying not to step on people's toes. And that's just backward. I started blogging for the very reason to be real and I can't go back to fakeness again. So InterVarsity, Staff, I love you guys. You may not like what I say or how I say it (believe me I've tried all sorts of ways all year) but I'm not holding back anymore. I'll share what God gives me to share because I love you all but I hate all systems of oppression and I am no longer afraid to bring them to light for the purpose of actual unity -based on Truth. (We have to have a "Kingdom perspective" coz it's spiritual warfare). "If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all." (Isaiah 7:9) Let's be moved by love and not fear. "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear." (1 John 4:18a) You can check out my friendship post.

“I am aware that many object to the severity of my language; but is there not cause for severity? I will be as harsh as truth, and as uncompromising as justice. On this subject, I do not wish to think, or to speak, or write, with moderation. No! no! Tell a man whose house is on fire to give a moderate alarm; tell him to moderately rescue his wife from the hands of the ravisher; tell the mother to gradually extricate her babe from the fire into which it has fallen; — but urge me not to use moderation in a cause like the present. I am in earnest — I will not equivocate — I will not excuse — I will not retreat a single inch — AND I WILL BE HEARD.” - William Lloyd Garrison.

"For Zion's sake I will not be silent, for Jerusalem's sake I will not remain quiet, till her righteousness shines out like the dawn, her salvation like a blazing torch." (Isaiah 61:1)

What does 'revival' look like? Like a Righteous Revolution. No compromise with slavery.