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Psalm 96
1 Oh
sing to the Lord a
new song;
sing to the Lord, all the earth!
2 Sing to the Lord, bless
His name;
tell of
His salvation from day to day.
3 Declare
His glory among the nations,
His marvelous works among all the peoples!
4 For
great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised;
He is to be feared above all gods.
5 For all the gods of the peoples are
worthless idols, but the
Lord made the heavens.
6
Splendor and majesty are before Him;
strength and
beauty are in his sanctuary.
7 Ascribe to the Lord, all you families of the peoples,
ascribe to the Lord glory and strength!
8 Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name;
bring an offering, and come into His courts!
9
Worship the Lord in the splendor of holiness; tremble before Him, all the earth!
10 Say among the nations,
“The Lord reigns!
Yes, the world is established; it shall never be moved;
He will judge the peoples with
equity.”
11
Let the heavens be glad, and let the earth rejoice;
let the sea roar, and all that fills it;
12 let the field exult, and everything in it!
Then shall all the trees of the forest
sing for joy
13 before the Lord,
for He comes,
for He comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in
righteousness,
and the peoples in His
faithfulness.
While in the deep darkness I saw the Light. He said that He is Coming SOON!
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Background
This has been in my drafts since May 2012. I knew God wanted me to share it but I kept avoiding it coz family is a subject that's close to my heart so it's really hard to talk about... especially in the heat of all the things that were going on... then I forgot about it but here we are back in the desert and it's time to face this in order to stop going round in circles. Also, later in the Fall of 2012 I took the Adolescent Psychology class and a lot of the material reminded me about my life as well as my family's. God has been forcing me to face my issues through my classes, wish I paid better attention though (depression was distracting). Don't have those notes with me right now so I'll just share my stories, it won't be sound scholastic but try to learn something. (I tend to write a lot and give too much background info so you can skip ahead to the main message: *A TIME TO HEAL.*A CALL TO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY. *A CALL TO WORSHIP. *REVIVAL AND RESTORATION. (and if you don't like to read stories you can just watch the videos I posted for confirmation and also listen to the music).
Life wasn't perfect in Kenya but when we came to America it's like all hell broke lose, drama escalated to another level we hadn't seen before (fights, cops, jail, division, relocation, eviction notices, health problems, hate, depression... ) not all at once though. If you're my facebook friend you might have read the piece I wrote to my sis Flo. Here's another summary: I'm from a family of seven kids, middle class, my dad's an entrepreneur with small businesses here and there, the original plan was to send us abroad for university after we graduated high school but we also tried applying for the greencard a couple of times but didn't get it. My sister Florence, the second born got a visa (it's really hard to get) and came by herself to the U.S. when she was only 18. In the year 2006, she had a plan to help the whole family come to the U.S, we ended up going to the embassy and a miracle happened - we all got visas that day, all 6 of us (2 big sisters of mine wanted to stay in Kenya so they didn't apply with us). When people in line saw the size of our family they laughed , I remember the guy in front of us told us we weren't going to get it. It's really hard for one person to get a visa and they usually drill you with questions but the guy who interviewed us, an America, simply asked us what we were going to do there, joked around with us then stamped our visas onto our passports. Just like that!
That was God!
The American Dream
Ok I can write a lot but I have to cut this short... So it was God who opened a door for us to get here. It was
His will for my family to be here and He used my sister Florence to bring us here. She has sacrificed
so much for our family. She brought us here so that we could get an education and take advantage of all the opportunities offered here, for a
better life. The American dream. She achieved so much on her own in spite of the obstacles so she knew that there was nothing we couldn't do as a family. But things panned out differently than she expected...
Remember my paper, also blog series:
Reforming the American System, Reforming Education? that was inspired by my personal as well as family experiences while here in America. But what's wrong with the American dream? It's just striving for a better life? Well there's nothing wrong with working hard to achieve your dreams. The problem comes in when it's "
Money over everything, money on my mind." Cause there's obviously
more to life than that. "God over everything, love on my mind."
"
The American Paradox" -"soaring wealth and shrinking spirit." He states that: "More than ever, we have big houses and broken homes, high incomes and low morale, more comfortable cars and more road rage. We excel at making a living but we often fail at making a life. We celebrate our prosperity but yearn for
purpose. We cherish our freedoms but long for
connection. In an age of plenty we feel
spiritual hunger." (Myers, 2009) "The challenge for wealthy nations, then is to foster improving standards of living without encouraging
materialism and
consumerism that displaces the deep need to belong." (David Myers)
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1. A TIME TO HEAL
So why didn't we just come to America and excel like Flo wanted us to. Coz we were all
broken. Well I can speak for myself. I was a mess before I left Kenya and a bigger mess when I came here. I was depressed, the past was holding me back and I needed healing, emotional and spiritual healing (post:
Remember). Here's a fb message I wrote my family (we had a thread of messages going, that's one way we kept in touch with my sisters in Kenya):
Ok here it is again: Hey family ~~~A Story and Apology~~~
So last summer before I went back to school Flo asked me why I wasn't myself anymore. Why I wasn't how I used to be when I was younger- more talkative. And how come I expressed myself with my "facebook family" but not with my real family. She asked if I was afraid but I just said no but I didn't explain after that. So I finally want to explain. I'm going to start blogging the whole story of my life later but here's the summary: "The acceptable false self arises from the adolescent's perception that the real self is rejected by parents & peers." (from my Psychology class). I was myself until I thought being me was a problem for people. I felt like everyone wanted me to change but after I changed because of them, they were like "Why did you change? I actually liked how you were before" (If this is too long to read then just read the last paragraph for the apology or we can just talk about it later
When I was younger yeah I was talkative but I was quiet sometimes and observant. I used to like nature and space. And I used to like thinking a lot/ daydreaming so I was usually never bored when I was by myself. So one time I was thinking (I think I was in class 5 or 6)... "Mum raised us Christian but what if i was born in a muslim family would I be muslim." So I wanted to be sure for myself that I was following the truth. So I thought to myself: I know God exists because of the beauty of creation. There just has to be a Creator or nothing would make sense. So I decided to go to the source. So I figured because God is big, he is everywhere so everywhere I go I can always talk to Him. And because He hears my thoughts I can always talk to Him in my head. And that's how I developed a relationship with God. Jesus became my best friend since He was always with me. I guess that's why I always had joy and peace and He started giving me Wisdom too.
So I stopped talking to you guys as much as I used to when I smaller because as we were growing up we started developing different lifestyles. I used to be best friends with Yvonne until she hit teens and that's when she would hang out with you guys and I would hang out with Moses and Olivia. And that's when we started fighting more. I remember we used to fight over music all the time. Before I also used to listen to secular music with you guys but when I developed a relationship with God my interests changed. And He gave me Wisdom so I knew that the music you listen to (it's message) can influence you. That's why I was angry at Yvonne when she would watch music videos with akina Moses and teach them secular songs. Because I didn't want them to imitate the lifestyles of those musicians and get the idea that life is all about how you look, money, cars, having a girlfriend/boyfriend and partying. So I would always play games with akina Moses and do Bible study and worship. I wanted to be a good influence. But when I went to boarding school I would come home and see that akina Moses changed and I felt like I had lost influence over them since I wasn't home that much.
So I mentioned that God was the source of my peace and joy and He also gave me Wisdom but I was hiding it because I thought I was too young and no one would want to listen to me. Also I wanted to remain a kid as long as I could for the privileges haha ;) I remember you guys had told akina dad that you weren't kids anymore so they used to take me, Moses and Olivia out on Sundays.
Another thing was... I used to speak my mind when I was younger and it was seen as funny and cute but later (Kileleshwa) mum would say I was being rude and dad would tell me to nyamaza. Then there's the day when dad beat me up because he said I was being rude to mum. So after that I saw that being myself and speaking my mind at home was a problem so for the sake of peace I stopped expressing myself. And I got used to it. But it was depressing because mum and Yvonne would talk about me like I couldn't speak for myself ... but I didn't speak for myself because everything I said was rude and would get me in trouble so I didn't know what to say so I just didn't say anything. I would go to school where I was free to be myself with my friends then I came home and just did my own thing: homework and studying and then later I went to boarding school. So that became the new me. And at the same time when that happened (back in Kileleshwa when dad and mum thought I was rude), a similar thing happened in school when I was accused of starting a strike. So it came down to people in authority telling me that being myself was a problem so for the sake of peace and being obedient I changed. I stop expressing myself much in school as well. I would just be myself with my close friends. So when I went to boarding school is when people started noticing that I had changed.
So the same people that I changed for were the ones asking why I had changed. They said they liked me how I was before. So it was sad that I had changed myself so much and there was peace but I still didn't please them. And I had changed so much I even forgot who I was. And it even affected my relationship with God that's why I didn't have joy and peace anymore. And later (at the gallery) I wished I didn't change myself for peace because it was at the cost of relationship. I saw Yvonne, even though she always fought with akina dad she had a good relationship with him. They still talked and laughed. And then with Olivia she would be shouting at mum and then dad would tell mum to wait for her to cool off before they talked.
Anyway, that's the story of how I stopped being myself. I'm not blaming anyone for anything. I know adolescence is a tough time in itself and parenting is even tougher with all of us. I want to apologize because looking back I learnt some things. So I realized that it was spiritual warfare going on. It was the devil who lied to me that I was a problem and that I had to change. So by changing I let him break my identity and I let him steal my voice, my joy and peace. When I skyped with Sheila the other time and she told me there was a time she was searching for God and she even felt like He didn't care about her but then God spoke to her through Melissa's friend. Hearing that made me sad because I had a relationship with God but I didn't share that with you guys because I thought I was too young and you wouldn't listen. So that was the devil's plan to break me and leave me voiceless so that the light of God couldn't shine through me to even my family. So I'm sorry for that. When you guys say you miss me I get surprised coz I don't know what you miss because I don't even talk that much so we just see each other then I go back to school. I realized that it was the devil's plan to break me so that I could be depressed which makes me be selfish -> so i stopped expressing my love to you guys like I used to. So I'm sorry for changing. I'm working on expressing myself more.
Also I miss how we were closer before but part of that is because I'm the one who's out of the loop of things. I miss how we used to sing together. Also God wants us to remember who we are. We need to remember His love for us. It's in Him that all things hold together. We need to love each other and forgive each other. We need to trust God with our future things are changing and we can't put out trust in money, education and jobs (yes those are all good and we need them to live but we need to put God first). Things are gonna go down for those who put their trust in the things of this world but for those who trust in God we shall soar in this coming season. God has great plans for us. Our family has strong personalities (hence the drama) that's because being leaders is in our DNA. Let's place all out trust in God. Listen to these songs. We are going to shine! (So I'm sorry and I love you all )
- January 6
So... I'm not afraid to talk about this stuff. It's like I've been waiting for God to do something in our family, waiting for the right time when I can finally be myself, waiting for a breakthrough. But that time never seems to come. And God has been waiting for me to be myself. But I haven't been and I've been afraid to be vulnerable. He gave me the time = each time that we are together. But I don't take it and then I go back to school with regrets; sad that I let the time slip by without being myself with you guys but then again God encourages me and gives me hope for the next time I come home but that same cycle continues. So why do I let it keep happening? I've noticed it's because you guys have your own routine and I don't want to interrupt your schedules and be an inconvenience so I just join in the routine or form my own (blogging and making videos). Remember the time when I wanted us to have a family meeting but we never did. Because I wasn't firm about setting a day because I didn't want to inconvenience people.
So anyway, I'm going back to school tomorrow and I don't want to leave with regrets as usual. I let the Winter break slip by again but I still have one more day with you guys so I want us to have a family meeting. We're not going to church but we'll get up and get ready and pick up Olivia. Then we can have a meeting before me. Livy and mum go to Yvonne's house. It will be a presentation by me. I'll introduce myself and say what I've been trying to say for once.
So at that meeting I ended up just breaking down and not saying much. But I did manage to share something that I'll get to in the next segment. And I made this video for them when I got back to school.
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2. A CALL TO LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY
What I managed to share with my fam was about my bro Moses... Anyone from Kenya knows that America is not the best place to raise children so it was hard for my younger siblings especially Moses. He came when he was beginning his teens so he was in Junior high. At home everyone was busy with their own lives, school and work, and something huge was missing... the feeling of love and togetherness we once shared. When we arrived we did more stuff together (bowling, tennis, etc) but then we stopped... why? Flo stopped initiating. She was tired of always being the one to bring the family together like it was only up to her and no one else cared. Well, we were all pre-occupied with our own lives, and for me with my selfish depression. And there came a time when Mozez started really changing and one day me and my mum found out some secrets. We found out that he was smoking weed. My mum and I were shocked, hurt and afraid when we found out. We didn't expect that from Moses though I had sensed that something was off. We found him in the park and we called him to the car and confronted him about it. My mum was quick to belt out her disappointments and we questioned him. I really wanted to understand, "Why?" I asked with tears in my eyes, he finally confessed, in an honest voice that I recognized as my baby brother's, "Because of mum and Olivia." The schools he went to were not good schools (low graduation rates) and his friends were not the best influences. But Moses was always ambitious. Though he was surrounded by negative peer pressure he didn't let his friends influence him because he had his family. But when he would come home it's like he walked into a war zone. Him and Olivia always got into fights and Olivia would go tell on him to my parents and they always took her side and blamed Moses, even though most times it was Olivia who started the fight. And this made Moses really angry coz my parents didn't listen to him. Another thing, when Olivia and I went to the Onething conference, I mentioned in the
Let go. Let love flow. post that we had a cry session with Livy on New Years, what was that about? Moses. That night during worship, God baptized my heart with anguish for my brother and all I could do was weep and pray in tongues coz I didn't have the words to pray about what I was feeling. So when we got back to Lorna's apt that night I had a talk with Olivia and she too started crying. I told her that God made me feel how Moses felt and convicted me of my guilt. We stopped doing things together as a family, I stopped initiating coz I was consumed with myself, and when Moses would ask me and Olivia to play with him on the xbox or football we would say no coz that was guy stuff and we didn't want to. Then we'd tell him to get off the xbox coz we wanted to watch our shows and since he's the only boy he always lost the vote. Also he had less attention from my parents coz they were much busier with work. So Moses was feeling left out and unloved and he would let this out aggressively and also by spending less time at home and more time with his friends who were bad influences. Then my family would always lecture him about his lifestyle and tell him to get his life together and plan the future but without us seeing his pain and our contribution to it. So that day at the meeting I shared this with my mum and Flo. Also here's one of the messages I sent them.
So I was going to share this with you guys a while back but I didn't so hear goes.
*Mozez is really close to giving his life back to God. I have been seeing this from Winter break and from sending him messages and how he has been responding. And when I asked my friends to pray for him today one of them said that God told him that God is calling Mozez into deeper relationship and Moses is struggling with how to respond. But there is something in the way that's a huge obstacle....guess what that is???? WE ARE!
*HOW? OUR MOUTHS. - Your tongue has the power of life and death: So by just pointing out his mistakes, shouting at him you are partnering with the devil. Another thing, stop asking him about his plans for future. (What he is going to do after he graduates). I know you care but all that is doing is adding him more pressure, worry and reminding him of his failures. So you are also partnering with the devil in that way. What you should do is put first things first. Pray that he seeks God first because everything else will be added to him after that (Matthew 6:33).
-STOP FIGHTING! "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (Ephesians 6:12
-Stop treating him like your enemy. We are on the same team. FIGHT IN THE SPIRIT (praying, fasting, praising God. That's how you fight against the enemy.)
***What can we do to help Mozez go back to God??? UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
-> Yvonne STOP shouting at him. STOP telling him to leave your house. Don't expect him to do anything, don't ask him to do anything for now. Just love him as he is. You won't make him change by shouting and repeating yourself over and over. PRAY for him, love him like he has done nothing wrong to you. LOVE changes people. Do this and you will see. What you have been doing (fighting with your mouth does not work, it is partnering with the devil and hurts you both). Love him whether or not he respects you. Love will change him. He really looks up to you from when he was younger. You make a HUGE impact in his life. Yvonne if you start loving Mozez unconditionally you will save his life. I know the things he says and does hurt you but this cycle will never break if we don't start somewhere. So let's start with putting him first and loving him as he is- this will change him and the things he says and does.
"If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the LORD will reward you." (Proverbs 25: 21-22)
**What Mozez needs is LOVE and Family (friendship)- So just treat him that way (not like an enemy or a counseling project). Watch movies, family videos with him, play games. Also watch this:
http://www.sidroth.org/site/News2?abbr=tv_&page=NewsArticle&id=10965&news_iv_ctrl=1141 This guy, Steve Foss, had a similar background as Mozez and he shares his story of how God changed his life. Also God showed him the root of all sin: spirit of inferiority and insecurity.
Wow that is really deep... And true and profound...I love you for that balu!!!
My mum did have a talk with Moses and apologized. I was touched by what he told her, he said that I was the only one who didn't judge him. When he felt like everyone was against him, I was the only one on his side. I don't want to take credit for this coz it was God who opened my eyes to see him like God saw him and loved him. It's not that I approved of his actions, I just decided to love him regardless, to make him feel loved and seen. With much sowing: prayer, fasting, encouragement from me and the rest of my family, God did a mighty work in Moses heart, filling him with hope. Though there was a lot of factors working against him, including his own teachers and administrators (who even admitted holding him back) he graduated from high school. My sis, Florence, told him about a job he could apply for at UCI and he got it! He's working as a lifter and getting paid well. He's saving for a car... and the sky is not even the limit. Things are getting better and better. God has great plans for him and I'm so overjoyed for all He has done already! Thank You Jesus! Here's a video I made for his birthday :-) (Also I'm not putting his business out there like he's the only one who had secrets. Here's some of mine:
Quick testimony! and I'm yet to share more of my stories, it's all for His glory! God makes beautiful things out of the dust, He makes beautiful things out of us! post:
Pimp My Ride :)
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2. A CALL TO WORSHIP: Sing a New Song!
*Finances & Living Situations: So when we came here Flo showed us all the ropes and helped us get on our feet. Like I mentioned, family dynamics changed since mum was not working and also going to school. My dad was working longer hours including night shifts and it was taking a toll on him and his health. People usually say that Kenyan men can't survive in America (*not compatible with the life here) because of their egos. My dad was his own boss back in Kenya, he made his own hours. He didn't go to college but he took a business course and had years of experience running his own businesses and he made ends meet for the family. But he couldn't just come to America and start a business just like that, so he had to take the jobs he could find but it reached a point that he couldn't take it anymore and decided to go back to Kenya to restart his businesses and revitalize some of them then come back here when there was a steady flow of income. For my dad it wasn't just about his ego, he was willing to do whatever for us, but he was concerned for his health and he had hope that his plan would work out, plus he wanted to go back to fight for some of our land that was stolen. He had a bunch of court cases to attend. My family didn't agree with his plan and wanted him to stay... I understood both sides... my dad left though (he's being going back and forth)... It was just the timing that wasn't the best, with Moses' situation he needed a male figure around whether or not they were seeing eye to eye, my mum was left in the apartment with most of the bills, Yvonne helped out with the bills but with her baby coming up she couldn't help as much. So my sis Flo, out of the kindness of her big heart came up with a plan. She decided to let my mum, bro and sis move in with her that way my mum could work less and start taking nursing classes. It was a tough transition time, Mozez didn't wanna move coz it was his senior year in high school, then some drama erupted so my sister's boyfriend took him in, so he stayed in Anaheim with Yvonne.
Anyway, there was much more drama all over the place. Each time I came home I was happy but also sad to see the state of things... I remember one time I told God that I was waiting for Him to breakthrough, but what He told me was challenging and convictin, "I am waiting for you to be yourself."... I'll come back to that.... So Flo had originally wanted my mum and us to stay at her house for just one year at most as we waited for my dad's return but plans changed, things were taking longer than expected. And all this was taking a toll on Flo, she's all about having a plan and keeping it. Also she has sacrificed so much for my family (even though she has her own) over the years and hasn't received much back from us, just more heartache and pain it seemed. So she decided to "kick out" my mum and sis, she said this because she was desperate for change and suffering more than we knew, When this would happen we would have meetings to talk about the problems and so we can come up with a plan of action, or we would just write to each other messages like the one below.
Flo, yeah that's true we don't ask since we assume and yeah I'm also guilty of that So I'm sorry for assuming and not asking and for us taking advantage of you
Also, let's do this... on Saturday when dad is leaving (that's the right day right?) let's all meet up at Yvonne's house and have a meeting led by me. Yes I'm stepping up, thanks for the challenge (I'm serious, no sarcasm).
Flo I can now see how deeply you are hurt and how we are responsible. I look around our family and I see hurt in all of us and in different ways and how we may or may not be responsible for it. I see oppression in different ways and WE HAVE TO OPEN OUR EYES and realize that we are NOT fighting against flesh and blood (our real enemy is the devil who is working against us all). We are a family and deliverance for EVERYONE (not just one person at the expense of the rest or the rest in the expense of one person) will only come when we look to GOD AS A FAMILY.
The devil knows the power of prayer and especially unity in prayer so he wants to bring confusion and conflict to divide us to prevent us from reaching our OH-SO-NEAR DESTINY our REAL IDENTITY and CALLING.
So if we are ACTUALLY devoted to receiving personal peace, true love (as the Bible defines it), unity, healing, freedom and prosperity, then WE HAVE TO put FIRST THINGS FIRST. AS A FAMILY, LET'S COME TOGETHER AND PRAY TOGETHER. MONEY does not fix things, akina mum moving out right now won't fix things (it won't fix the roots of the problems, the hurt and everyone's situation).
GOD IS FOR US!!! ALL OF US!! And He wants to bring restoration and wholeness to ALL of US and to ALL areas of our life.
So for ONCE. Let's quit fighting like the world does (with words) and LET'S USE THE WEAPONS THAT ACTUALLY WORK (PRAYER, FASTING, WORSHIP). GOD can fix years of a MESS in just ONE DAY. HE IS GOD. He kept giving me this chapter 1 Samuel 7 -> He wants to give us everything we've been wanting and more.
Flo, I know you have worked hard and long and have really sacrificed. GOD SEES ALL OF THAT. AND HE WILL GIVE YOU THE RELIEF YOUR CRAVING AND YOU SHALL SEE THE PROSPERITY YOU'VE BEEN WANTING TO SEE IN OUR FAMILY. HE SHALL REPAY ALL YOUR SELF-SACRIFICE. I'm not trying to justify how we've treated you. I'm sorry and please forgive us. I'm just saying that GOD SEES you when all of us failed and HE WILL REALLY BLESS YOU FOR FREE. You've worked so hard for everything you have and now HE WANTS TO GIVE YOU REST AND OTHER FREE STUFF.
HOLD ON EVERYONE! We can't give up now. We are sooo close to all we've been longing for.
WE ALL JUST NEED TO WAIT ON GOD--> which means ACTUALLY SEEKING HIM. HE WILL COME THROUGH FOR ALL OF US.
Also I watched this video and Cindy's story reminded me a lot about my family and I feel what she teaches, "Commanding your morning" aka "singing a new song" is what is going to bring breakthrough and restoration. Check out her story it's really cool, almost unbelievable but with God all things are possible! =)
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3. REVIVAL AND RESTORATION: God is doing a New thing!
So remember when God told me, "I am waiting for you to remember who you are. I am waiting for you to be yourself," as if that was the answer to all my family problems. So when the problems got intense for me, not just at home but at school as well. I forced to turn to God. I had so many questions for him. Why did He bring my family and I here? To suffer? Was that His plan? Why are we here? Why am I here? When I started asking Him these questions and seeking Him so desperately (fasting, worship and His Word) coz I had caved myself in and there was no where else I could turn. So that's when He started giving me the bigger picture and the
purpose to the pain, kinda like the story of Joseph. And He even started revealing more about our
identity, which revealed more of our
calling. Related post:
REAL Identity.
Here's a message I wrote to my sisters:
******GOD HAS SPECIAL PLANS FOR THE MACHARIAS********
I went to this church a few weeks ago and people with the gift of prophecy were prophesying over the congregation. It was my first time there and this woman looked at me and told me that each time I smile I change the atmosphere of the room because of the joy of the Lord, and just by smiling I'm making an impact in people's lives.
Then later on that night one of the pastors pointed me out and called me, I went to him and he asked me, "Do you know that you are royalty?" and I was like, "Yeah I know God is the King and I'm a princess." But he said, "No, do you know that you have royalty in your earthly bloodline?"
He told me that 5 generations ago there was some royalty in our family and that person was also righteous in God's eyes and so He said that God sees that and He is going to bless us, we are being blessed because God blessings goes onto the next generation and the next... The pastor told me to research that person. I asked mum but she doesn't know lol
And like a year ago, dad, mum, me, Moses, Olivia and Yvonne had gone to this church called The River. And as we were on our way out this lady stopped us and asked to pray for us. She then told us that she got a vision of us wearing golden wreaths
charlene, am so happy 4 u. i wish i was there with u. most churches here r dead, without the Power of God, i pray i will find one soon. i want to grow n grow spiritually. i want God to use me. the end is near, n the last of the prophecies that were made is that sons will have visions n daughters dreaming dreams.....,n now all these r beginning to happen. the end is near. we need to be prepared. i pray 4 all of us to be saved n transformed. wa, charlene, am so happy 4 u.
i love reading psalm 18:1 i love you, O Lord, my strength.
Yeah, like the prophecy, revival will start here then it will spread around the world
About the golden wreaths...I looked up the significance. This is what it means: "Wreaths were taken to symbolize a person's divine favor, back in the day. It was taken to mean that the person wearing it was important in the eyes of God. In the wreath, the circle signified eternity since there was no beginning and no end in a circle."
am so jazzed. what? royalty? no wonder i ve always felt theres smth special abt me....lol. but no wonder satan has been working so hard at fighting attacking this family, trying to destroy us completly. he has no idea the kind of fight we r going to put up against him.
Yeah the pastor said that's why when we smile we change the atmosphere of the room because we are royalty and when royal people walk in the room people notice. And that's true, that is why the devil has been attacking us and trying to bring conflict and division amongst us so that we don't realize who we are and the good plans that God has for us
We are not fighting against each other (flesh and blood) but against the devil's schemes to keep us from loving each other and turning to God.
****LET'S LOVE & FORGIVE EACH OTHER*********
"Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates a brother or sister is still in the darkness.Anyone who loves their brother and sister[c] lives in the light, and there is nothing in them to make them stumble.But anyone who hates a brother or sister is in the darkness and walks around in the darkness. They do not know where they are going, because the darkness has blinded them." (1 John 2:9-11)
abt the smile, its landed me jobs. i remember my 1st job in tune inn yaya centre, i handwrote my cv in the car n handed it in like that. i remember flo laughing telling me mine will be overlooked coz it wasnt typed, but i told her mine will be picked coz its different, i was called 4 interview then during interview, i was told i have a great smile n was hired.
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thanks 4 the info princess charlene. i wonder how the wealth, name of the royalty was wipe out completely with no one to even speak of it. hiyo ni homework.
just prayed with pastor Gabriel. God revealed its on mum's side. funny the way mum doesnt even know she is royalty. ha ha. but God is faithful.
- November 18, 2011
Hey baluu.. thanks for replying... eventually .. yes i remember you told me about the laughing.. has that happened in fellowship again since?.. It is so nice to see you so spiritual.. i remember there were days when i was there... im sure there is still alittle bit of that left somewhere deep inside... ... like rafiki said.. i probably do not remember who i am anymore.. just dissolved into life and everything it calls for ... starting with a psalm a day is a good idea.. i will try it out... ROYALTY... WOW THATS NEWS... nice that you get so many phophesies over you charlene and that God is on your side.. .... by the way i am replying as i read the messages i didnt realize there ws so many... ati mum doesnt know who the person could be .. how come no one has told me these things before??? .....well baluu... i know we all have grat smiles.. but the prophesy was for you and your smile... .....mson.. wow i vaguely remember the tune in job.. but was i here in the states already when that happened?
ok now i love the sound of this royalty thing in the family but what does that mean to us now.. we have homework todo... we have work to do.. or should we just wait for these blessings?... dont mean to sound greedy but im just saying.. life seems like a never ending struggle so when do we get a break?
we r royalty like that movie-coming to america. the king of zamunda etc...lol. well, all i know, when we align ourselves with God, the rest will fall in place. He has already promised us a bright future.
Charlene I didn't know about you walking backwards in circles!...cool! Flo unanichekesha,ha ha ha ha ha. Kama hauja ambiwa about ur smile shauri yako!lol, I am always told that my smile brightens pples day, all the tucucus I used to work for they used to tell me that.
I also think its true that we are always noticed everywhere we go......
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LMAO....Sheila, really??? The King of Zamunda, nimecheka karibu nikojoe, you are too funny. Na hiyo royalty ati its on mums side? Because mummy said that her dad used to have a lot of money lakini I guess pherithi alimaliza....
Yeah it makes sense that the royalty is on mum's side. My friend Priscillah commented on one of our family pictures and said that we all have mum's smile. We have inherited a lot from mum. It is because of her that we know God. She brought us up teaching us to pray together, going to church...giving us advice and teaching us about God.
@ Flo no I haven't laughed like that again. But now I sing with the worship team, and there's a difference in how I sing. I sing without caring what people think of me, I sing loudly and from the heart. "Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.” (John 4:23-24) And I agree with Sheila, God just wants us to trust Him with our lives and our everything. Then He is the one who will guide us and reveal the good plans He has for us. "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, (acknowledge Him) and he will make your paths straight. (He shall direct your paths)" (Proverbs 3:5-6) *** @Flo- you had taught me that verse a long time ago :)
Sheila Muthoni as i was saying, amenitoa mbali, n its been miracle after miracle, stopped drinking, moved to a new hse that we will own, got a car, stevens promotion, restored marriage, sean healed of skin asthma, me toe, hip joints, now my skin,........n still counting. but most of all is the peace n joy of the Lord that we experience. the spiritual realm is more superior to this physical one, what we see now is what was in the spiritual. the spiritual is eternal n the physical is temporary. so we need to work on our Faith.
ambia mum amwagie flo ile holy water kama bado iko....lol. oh ya charlene, i remember us singing in the kitchen. flo, u might not have the voice but i know with the Holy spirit u can do anything, like God showed me in a dream, i was singing with a beautiful voice n preaching to a big crowd. i was told that God wants to use me in that way. i remember my secret dream was that, i used to tell God every time, if u bless me with a beautiful voice, i will use it to praise u. n when it comes to public speaking, i get shy n i stumble/fumble(choose one..lol) with my words, but with the Holy spirit, i can do anything. i thank God 4 the free gift of salvation, i thank Him 4 Jesus, n 4 the Holy spirit. this is a life i never thought existed, as in, focus n God n He will focus on u n all ur needs. can u imagine, the other day we were pray with pastor n Gods spirit revealed to him that we pray 4 our car it doesnt get spoilt. i have never felt so touched, as in God is so involved in ur life if u let Him, n He goes clearing the way for you.
Charlene Wambũi Macharia
Hey Oh yeah, last Monday when I went to the prayer night. The guy prayed and the only thing he said was that money is a big issue for our family.
Ok that's just a snippet of our long convo. It actually begun with me sharing with them this story:
Hello Africans... -My experience of God setting me free with His Spirit and waking me up to who I am and the times we're living in. And throughout the convo singing is brought up, we also talk about it more in later but I didn't include the whole thing for sake of length. But yeah these are the days... things are changing... the kingdoms of this world are more corrupt than you think. The government will need to be overthrown, yes Heaven is coming down. Jesus is coming and He also wants to fill us with more of His
power and
glory so that we rule with Him. He wants to empower us so that we can prepare the way for Him. Lots of changes are coming so it's imperative to
turn to Jesus our Redeemer, He will
protect us and
restore our fortunes, all for His glory. And this message isn't just for those who happen to have Jewish roots somewhere in their bloodline, it's for everyone since He is doing a new thing, He is creating a united people, "One New Man." K this is long enough, you can check out the video below, God revealed stuff to me when I was making it so pay attention to the scripture. Here's more scripture He gave me for my family: Jeremiah 31:31-34 and
Joel 2:23-29.
Peace =) Here's another confirmation video:
Summary: We need to Remember who we are (Look to God), We need to love and reconcile, We need to unite and fight for each other (praying and worshipping together), We need to sing a New Song! -- instead of talking about problems it's time to declare a new day. It's time to speak life and take a hold of God's promises by faith. More about that in a post I'm working on called, "Resting Place." And yeah, Jesus is coming soon so let's get it together! =)
Oh yeah, my family never came together in worship and prayer... but this Sunday it's gonna happen. Please pray for us for healing and breakthrough. Also these are my stories, I haven't talked about all the problems and challenges we've faced, but I'm sharing this as a testimony. To God be the glory! Great things He has done and greater things He is yet to do! PRAISE GOD! =D
Charlene Wambũi Macharia
